I've been in videography for about 4 years now and I have to say, it was realy tough years with extreme low income and a lot of work. I did manage to improve my equipment and expertise portfolio, but the income is still so low, that I can't even rent myself a flat. At the same time I've got very confused and unmotivated about what am I doing, what was the thing I loved to do. Maybe there was just a lot of works where I was scammed and worked for nothing, so I got a feeling that I don't really like to work that anymore. I'm still so eager to pick up my camera and shoot something, but I don't have any idea what to shoot. It's just an inside deep wish of doing something and not knowing what exactly I want to do.
Have I lost my motivation, or I still didn't find the thing I love to do? Has anyone had the same period in life? Maybe even lost it's relationship with a girl you loved in such period which could be even bigger demotivator...? :\
Any opinion on this would be grateful *.*